Jim & Diana

I have been too tired to post about our mini trip to San Francisco but it was beautiful, restful, and someday I will post the funny pictures of our Trail Run.
I have been tired and than tonight I just got hit with something...I don't know where it came from exactly....I don't know if it is because it is March. In March of 2002 I met Jim & Diana for a nice lunch at Chevy's. They flew out from Virginia to meet with me. They were both cute, they had brown hair. They loved history...they studied history. They had been to all of the Civil War sites....I mean they knew a lot about history. They were very involved in their church and they had a dog. They were nice, nice people. Diana looked at me and smiled....a lot. And we laughed together and we hugged.
So all of this made it harder when I had to write to tell her that I would be keeping my baby. I didn't want to think it was anything against them...and I knew what she would say would be out of her sadness and hurting. And I still think about them and cry for them. I know they have forgiven me...in my heart I know they have a beautiful child if not two already. I don't understand why we judge and why we criticize. If we all had our stories on our backs or our t-shirts we would maybe watch what we said more. I am selfish, I retracted a promise, I gave and took away, you can question people on their decisions but know it is more than likely going to haunt them longer than you will remember to "not understand".